Assalammualaikum
Hellooo this is just some useless rant T_T
So I've been so occupied and I don't have time to update my blog, I did made few drafts but I didn't get to finish the posts T_T
Anyway, it's study week right now! I'll be having my finals starting next week.. hence why I'm here innocently using my precious time updating a blog post ahh screw it, I just want to rant right now.. hahah
Oh dear, I'm a type of person who'll always expect high on myself and later get disappointed by the result due to the high bar I put towards my own self at the first place. Why do I get disappointed? because .. i'm just not good enough.. like I always ''think'' that I can do well but I'll always messed up in the end .. (maybe I didn't do that bad but I still feel that it's not enough, what an ungrateful amira)
You know how stressful it gets when you're so motivated to get like a high distinction for the exam but really deeeep down in the heart, you know you won't make it.. I know that I shouldn't be that negative since I haven't sit for the exam buuuut this morning I did some practice of my 'kind of' favourite subject to realize that there are so many things that I didn't know .. Like I knew it before but at that time I don't know .. Like you've studied for it before but it didn't stick on your head T_T That's when I felt like crying ya Allah.
The thing about me is ... I realized that sometimes i'm just being too hard on myself .. but I still do it anyway, like I know my abilities but I still strive for the highest peak, and then boom get dissapointed.. but then again I wonder.. is it wrong for me to hope for the best?
I'm also being harsh to myself when I started to scold myself for forgetting things, guess making my own self stressful and sad is one of my hobby.. when actually I know that the brain I have can't store infinity infos, since I'm not only doing a subject, it's acceptable for me to forget things .. but why am I still feeling sad n stressing about it ..
Studying can gets really stressful, moreover when u're doing engineering but out of all these, I know that what I need right now are just more pats on myself, being more appreciative of what I've work on, complimenting myself everytime I've achieve something and be grateful. Plus one more important thing is I need to stop comparing myself with other's abilities. Hard work never betrays inshaAllah.
You can do it dear self!
Sincerely by Amira Aina
hi mira aina!! im just checking in to tell you that it's okay to feel down sometimes :) i know tht ur such a smart girl and ur really good at managing your time esp. in ur studies.. i get it that u feel devastated by the practices tht u made for ur exam preparation ((which i believe u'd done v v well)). believe me when i say tht all the nervous feelings tht u feel are just ur mind playing a trick on u. maybe u've been study too much it tells u to slow down for a bit, catch up some breath. i know how it feels when u didn't get what u expected to - i know how heart-broken it makes us. but tht's okay, as long as u believe in urself and never stop trying :) i'll always root for ur future success. don't feel bad abt urself ok bb huhu okbye
ReplyDeleteHi puttt! God I miss your positive vibes T_T thankyou for this heartwarming message! I appreciate it soo much :))) take care of yourself and have fun while u're in Japan! hopefully we get to meet again later and if nak dtg Aussie, I'll be more than happy to be your tour guide hehe. lastly, I hope u're doing good too, u're a hardworking lady and u deserve to be happy :>
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